Never grow up...

Your little hands wrapped around my finger

and it's so quiet in the world tonight

your little eyelids flutter cause your dreaming

so I tuck you in and turn on your favorite nightlight

To you, everything's funny

you got nothing to regret

I'd give all I have honey

if you could stay like that

Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up

just stay this little

Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up

it could stay this simple

I won't let nobody hurt you

won't let no one break your heart

no one will desert you

just try to never grow up

never grow up..

(Taylor Swift- Never grow up)

I was listening to this song on my way home from work today and I was crying harder than you could imagine. Every mom has their "favorite" stage, and I can say that every stage has been great. However, this stage Nicolas is in now has taken the gold. I want him to "never grow up." He wobbles around the house talking gibberish but as if he's carrying on a conversation with you. He willingly comes up to me at the most random times just to give me a kiss. He sits still for as long as it takes to get him dressed (most of the time). He makes himself laugh. He makes me laugh harder. He tickles me and knows it's funny. He throws me mischievous smiles from time to time. He makes the cutest "mmm" sound as he eats. He finds everything interesting. He loves to share his Goldfish crackers with me by feeding them to me and then tries to fish them out with his fingers. He reaches for me with a yearn he only has for his mom. He looks at me with such innocence. It makes me so emotional to think he'll eventually grow out of doing all of these things. I don't want to forget this moment of his life when I've never felt more complete and happy beacuse of this little human being.