new mom, old friend

I'm sure that all mom's would agree with what I'm about to discuss and I'm sorry if I offend anyone in the process.

Before I had my son, I knew my relationships would change, I guess I just wasn't prepared as to how much. Over the course of Nicolas' soon to be first year of life, I've said "goodbye" and "hello" to relationships with some great and not-so-great people in my life. I read a quote from a Facebook friend that read, "Sometimes you have to let go of certain people, everyone is meant to be in your journey, but not everyone is meant to stay" and those words could not have been more true or more fitting to my current life. Having a child has definitely been the most rewarding but at the same time the most difficult. It saddens me to know that the relationships I once held close to my heart are now just a memory. Granted a friendship is a two way street and there is no excuse to be made on my part but I am now at the point in my life where for myself and also for the betterment of my new found family, I have to be surrounded by people who carry common interests and values. I have to keep going and once a friendship feels like work its no longer a friendship, it's a job. I've had this discussion over and over with my sister who has reminded me that although it's sad to close those doors to what you thought would be lifelong friendships, you have to keep looking forward and take it as a growing experience. Even though our journey has ended together and we move on taking only our memories, who knows, maybe one day our paths will cross again. In the meantime, I wish you luck in future endeavors.