LOVE is an overwhelming feeling

My newest song obsession is "A thousand years" by Christina Perri. The words hit my heart like a lightening bolt when I heard them for the first time. I was so overwhelmed with emotion. I cried and cried (luckily I was alone but in my car so I can only imagine what fellow drivers were thinking). Any time I hear a love song, naturally I think of my love, my husband. He's truly my everything. But this time I thought of someone else. I thought of TWO someone else's. My children. Sounds so weird to actually put into words seeing as how baby "R" isn't even born yet but I'm one of those women that as soon as I find out I'm pregnant, I instantly feel that connection. I instantly fall in love. I immediately imagine the future and all that it holds. Once my heart has that hope of what the future is to bring I can't picture my life any other way than the insight as to what it's supposed to be. When I heard this song it brought me to those feelings of attachment from the very moment I realized I would become a mother. I remember both instances when I found out and how my life and world instantly changed. My values that once were a certain way, now shifted because I would be a mother. The ultimate caregiver of something great. When I hear those words blare through my radio, I cry because I feel the tingle in my nose and the glitch in my throat that I felt when that love was confirmed the first time I saw our son and that I will feel again when I meet our daughter. I cry because I know that my children will teach me way more than I could ever teach them. I know that they are the true pursuit of happiness. I know that without them, my life would have missing pieces. I know that one day they will make every single struggle, and every tear, and every heartbreak, worth it all. My children are my life and they have helped create the woman I am today. Without them, I am nothing more than a hopeless soul. I wish that one day they can read this and know how much I completely adore them. If you haven't heard this song yet, I recommend  you do.

"A thousand years" - Christina Perri

heart beats fast

colors and promises

how to be brave

how can i love when i'm afraid

to fall

but watching you stand alone

all of my doubt

suddenly goes away somehow

one step closer

i have died everyday

waiting for you

darling, don't be afraid

i have loved you for a

thousand years

i'll love you for a

thousand more

time stands still

beauty in all she is

i will be brave

i will not let anything

take away

what's standing in front of me

every breath

every hour has come to this

one step closer

and all along i believed

i would find you

time has brought 

your heart to me

i have loved you for a 

thousand years

i'll love you for a

thousand more

one step closer

and all along i believed

i would find you

time has brought

your heart to me

i have loved you for a 

thousand years

i'll love you for a 

thousand more